It'll be ok...

What a week! One of the girls in our room did her usual trick of not turning up to work or calling or anything - god knows how she still has a job - guess it's cos they can't afford to sack anyone when everyone keeps resigning! Anyway that meant that we were run off our feet most days - and the funniest thing was that yesterday I was convinced it was Wednesday and wondered why the week was going so slowly until someone pointed out it was actually Thursday and I had a wonderful moment when the weekend was suddenly a day closer!!

I had decided not to tell the parents of our babies I was leaving until after Easter - leaving a couple of weeks before I left. I didn't want it hanging over us all for ages - better to just carry on as normal and enjoy my last few weeks. But someone must have told one of the mums cos she suddenly asked me if it were true that I was leaving (in front of one of the other mums I might add) so it's kinda out there now. Those who won't find out via other mums (as many of them work together) will need to be told next week - it's only fair they all know.

Then, as I was leaving work I bumped into another one of the mums who had asked me previously if I'd be staying long-term (this was before I had decided to hand my notice in) and she asked me again if I'd be staying (must have been something in the air today!) and I said no and she said she didn't think I'd be able to. She is one of my favourite mums and her daughter is my very favourite baby I will miss so much (I will miss them all of course - but this one in particular) so it was very sad and brought it all home and I felt very emotional after that...

But it'll be ok. And I've been thinking about it and I am swaying towards one of two things - doing teacher training as a graduate and being paid 4 or 5 grand more than I am now or being very ambitious and trying out an idea which I thought of the other day which I think has potential... I'd rather do the latter I think but the former is a much safer and more responsible choice. I'll do some research into both and see what happens - I trust that I will end up wherever I am meant to end up whenever I am meant to end up there.

I cannot help but keep playing a song by Jewel in my head over and over...

Dont worry mother it'll be alright
And dont worry sister say your prayers and sleep tight
And it'll be fine, lover of mine
It'll be just fine

And lend your voices only to sounds of freedom
No longer lend your strength to that which you wish to be free from
Fill your lives with love and bravery and you shall lead
A life uncommon

Ive heard your anguish, Ive heard your hearts cry out
We are tired, we are weary but we arent worn out
Set down your chains 'til only faith remains
Set down your chains

And lend your voices only to sounds of freedom
No longer lend your strength to that which you wish to be free from
Fill your lives with love and bravery and you shall lead
A life uncommon

There are plenty of people who pray for peace
But if praying were enough it would have come to be
Let your words enslave no one
And the heavens will hush themselves to hear
Our voices ring our clear with sounds of freedom
Sounds of freedom

Come on you unbelievers move out of the way
There is a new army coming and we are armed with faith
To live, we must give
To live

And lend our voices only to sounds of freedom
No longer lend our strength to that which we wish to be free from
Fill our lives with love and bravery and we shall lead...

And lend our voices only to sounds of freedom
No longer lend our strength to that which we wish to be free from
Fill your lives with love and bravery and we shall lead
A life uncommon

Funny- first time I heard that song I just couldn't work out what she was singing and thought the line was "Fill your lives with love and gravy" and thought it hilarious! Oh the workings of my mind...